My Boys Growing Up

Donovan's first day of preschool was yesterday, and he couldn't wait to go! All morning while we are getting ready he asked "I go to preschool today yes Yes YES!!!" And he got louder each time I said yes or nodded my head. So we took Thea to school and then went off to preschool and there is just enough time in between that we have to sit in the car for a few mins befor the doors open and I thought Donovan was going to loss it having to wait in the car untill his teacher came out, I think he would have just left me in the car if he could!! We went in his class room and watched him find his seat and but his backpack away, He was such a big boy I could feel my self tearing up, lucky for me Logan started getting in to peoples bags so I was to busy to cry right then. When I told Donovan that I was leaving he sat down and just waved me off with out even looking at me, WOW Thanks mans so glad you need me! So I just sat there watching him for another 5 mins then I really said good bye, this time he said good bye back and gave me and Logan Kisses. The min I had Logan in the car and me behind the wheele I lost it just cryed and cryed all the way home. I think it was for both kids growing up, but Donovan going to school has been so much harder on me it's so silly I'm the one that found the school and put him in there, and he loves it but would have been fine at home with out it, I was not ready to feel like I loseing two of my kids. Again so silly there just at school they come home so happy to see me and love going and seeing the other kids and school. I know I will enjoy the time I have by my self , Logan naps time so he's home just not up to play with, I just have to get used to have such good kids that don't always need me because we have reaised them right and they know them selves and the Lord and I are always here for them, the Lord with them and me waiting for them here at home. I'm so greatful for our Lord and that I know he will be with me and my kids every day and when ever when need him, but today I'm still not ready to let go and let them grow up so fast!